Tuesday, December 27, 2005?
siigh . . .
damn longg nebe update muaii blog lerhxXx . .
muaii ran away from muaii home . . .
den mauii dad make police report . .
siianxXx . . .
now damn siianxXx . . no money no everything . . .
recently moved back to muaii mom place stay . . .
donnoe wat to do oso . . .
skool reopeniing soon to0 . . .
donnoe how to buy muaii bookxXx . . .
siigh . . .
juxXx hope liife wud be better barhxXx . . .
recently got a stead . .
to muaii not serious one . . .
buden broke off lerhxXx . . .
muaii feel its berii unfair to her . . .
hope she iish not reading tiis . . .
now to muaii everything seems to not go to muaii will
bad things happen to muaii agaiin . . .
agaiin . . . the feeling muaii always don wanna feel . . .
muaii feel like dying . .
muaii noe muaii wont be dat stupid . .
but wat can muaii do siigh . . .
juxXx have to go along to wat may cum barhxXx . . .
arg . . .
signing off now. . . . . buaixXx
Sunday, December 11, 2005?
Helloxx...x.x.x.x.
todae quiite farn arhxXx....
yesterday viictor joyce bo0n yii song and ah puii come miie hse stay overr...
victor verii farnie...
he explore miie hse like siiaox....
hurhurx...
den hab a longg niite . . .
hab fun . . .
hurhurx . . .
den one by one dey go0 to sleep . . .
siianx...
left miie and ah puii . . .
den we talk talk talk . . .
den miie buay tong liiaoxXx shho miie went to sleep . . .
miie denn woke up at 5 pluss . . .
we all went to east poiint plae pool . . .
den dey all went home . . .
now left ah puii and bo0n miie hse . . .
hidayah nn bo0n jux quarrel . . .
lolx...
coxXx he tell pei rong he still mish herr . .
but joking derh larhxXx...
hidayah cannot take joke . . .
boh pian....
hurhurx...
miie goiing off liiaoxXx . . .
buaiixXx . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ^_^
Friday, December 09, 2005?
yyaawwnnxx . . . . . miie nw damnn tiired nehhx...
ah pui . . . ah hao . . . . ah boon . . . att miie hse now...
we hadd a greatt tiime lastt niitex . . .
have lotsa fun . . .
now deyy all sleepiing soundly lerhx...
only miie left awake . . .
shuckx . . .
miie tak boleh tahan aniimorre....
mush sleep lerhx...
or miight collapex . . . .
bbUaiiXxX
Thursday, December 08, 2005?
yOoozzZ...
diish few dayys miie internet down... shho nebe update miie blog...
nw okie lerhx...
hurhurx...
well....
miie habb STM[SHORT TERM MEMORY]
shho cannot rmb wat happen dish few days lerhx...
well...
few dayys ago miie gort goo down yiishun fiind hidayah and pei fen...
played some basket ball...
Bout todaee....
hmmm
foo boon take taxi to miie hse at bout 3 am liidat....
den wiie habb a longg chat...
talk bout tupidd thiings liike.. well.. tupidd thiings lorhx...
den he gort hungry...
shho we order macdonalx nn eat...
BIG breakfast
hurhurx...
after datt he was like shho tired...
den we sleep lorhx...
den hidayah came miie hse to find us...
or boon :x
well... deyy patch lerhx...
congratulationxx to dem...
hohox...
miie feel like gooseberry...[dian deng pao] sumtiimex...
hehex...
well... deyy came miie hse to sleep...
bleahx..
hurhurx..
hidayah gort up at 5.15 fer a lame job interview..
shho she was damn tired...
den blah blah blah...
miie wiill cut derh crapx...
at evening we wentt to east point to walk walk...
play some arcade...
den deyy gotta go hm lerhx...
sobx...
supposinly they will be coming laterr... after miie dad slp... heex....
but nw raining heavily lehx..
miie oso donnoe watta do...
well
jush hope pple will come miie hse keep miie company..
shucks..
datta will be all fer today...
miie go Lah liang lerhx...
buaix...
Sunday, December 04, 2005?
hey....
today whole day at home...
again...
well...
yesterday night...
yisong and foo boon came to my hse at 0230....
damn gay la.... haha...
then my dad call us to order macdonal....
so we did....
well...
after the mac came....
we ate la...
then after that something bad happend
my dad beat mii up.... wth sial...
he said i was selfish as i only care bout my self and never bring the food up for him...
so mii was like.... er... then kena beaten lo....
damn....
pain....
hehe...
so after that i damn sians la...
i took cig... call yi song and boon to accompany me....
well... they r drop dead tired....
i went behind my hse there... got this little pavilion of some sort...
sat there took puff....
i was very tired but cant slp... dunno why...
im dying soon le bah...
but yisong and boon well asleep fast....
i lied on my bed till 0600...
slacking around...
still cant slp.... so try to find pple who r awake....
well
only 1 person awake nia...
yuyu...
sigh...
talk to her till like 0630...
then kup...
lame conversation...
i was damn tired but cant slp....
i heard moving in my dad's room
i then rememeber that he will be going thailand at 7....
weee~~
soon after my dad left... i went to play de comp.... hurhurs...
then like 0930 lidat ah hao came...
we went to east point awhile as yisong and boon were still slping...
then after we came back.... damn tired
supposingly got go out today de...
but went to slp...
sobx..
well.... boon left my hse at 1700 lidat....
then yi song left at 1830
then hao left at 2100
and im alone till now... hehe....
sad...
guess ill be going out tmr...
staying home sux...
haha....
gtg..
bubyes....
Saturday, December 03, 2005?
sigh... boring day... today whole day at home..... with no one accompanying me....
hope that foo boon and yi song will come
but most probably not bah....
sigh......
so sians....
msg u u dun wan reply...
nvm...
im just bored....
hehe.....
ive given u up le...
dun worry...
or maybe im thinking too much...
hehe
sigh....
tmr might be going out....
so guess ill be back here again tmr...
?
im updating my post for yesterday....as i cant use com ysterday hehe.....
yesterday my dad finally gave me money..... HALLEHLUYA!!!!after my dad went out.. i sneak out... hehe....guess it aint a very good thing for him to gimme money ar... haha.... wellthe nite before....i didnt slp... confernce with my primary sch fren... not a very good conversation...kinda sian....but o well...and then morning when i was using the com someone call me to talk....she told me somth that shocked me....the person who say that im useless and still cant grow up and cannot think cos i sniff glueactually sniff glue herself....i dunno wat to say but shocked...she still gave reasons.... or excuses if u like to call them....anyway... just dun think her words are reliable.... she talk much but do none...
then i sneak to yishun.... and went to hidayah's hse... foo boon was already there...then soon after i reached... pei fen came...i was damn tired....managed to get a 10 mins slp.... haha.... last me the whole day le... then after that we went to chong pang cc to play basket ball.....then kun liang came...then jeremy and victor came...i was damn exhausted after the game...must be so many days stuck at home smoking and sniffing glue...now damn no stamina....will mati sial.... hehe...
after that went to 111 play basket ball again... but there too many pple liao...so we shifted to 139 basket ball court....there i didnt play....too exhausted liao.... weak eh me???
there was this guy that "accidently" kicked kun liang LJso after that match foo boon called the guy over and asked him things...then all 5 of us (ofcourse not hidayah and peifen)hit the guy...there was this china guy that tried to interfier but got beaten up by vic and jeremy..........after that jeremy and vic went home....kun liang wanted to go northpoint buy cake for his bro birthday.....so we accompanied him to northpoint loh....then when we were bout to reach ah hao told us to go block 747got something......so me and boon went there loh...sians...hehe...that morning dada got ganged up by pple at sunplaza....so supposingly today go help him like gang them back la...but my dad is coming back at 3 later....so gay la...i cannot go out the whole day loh today...sad.....
guess tats all for the day...i go "do homewok" liao...
Friday, December 02, 2005?
somethings just aint meant to be.....
this might only be a few days....
but the cut might last forever...
why m i in my current position...
wat ive done is better for her n me..
i might have been hurt...
but if it aint for the choice i made now
i would have been hurt even more...
i noe im a paranoid...
but at least wat ive been thinking is true..
im now not blaming anyone of u....
but to blame myself for falling in love with the wrong gal...
all i can do now is to sit down and watch...
to see how the outcome will be...
i am now all wretched and torn...
just waiting for my cuts to heal....
this aint a poem i made....
this is just how i feel....
so dun mock my work...
as they r all that is in my heart...
i only wish my life is a bit more colourful
its getting duller everyday...
doing the same old routine...
just hope that there will be some one out there
who can console me....
but im the type who consoles but do not get console....
just have to let this happening be another memory...
now all that is left to do....
is to forget u....
its hard but possible....
forgive me if i have to ignore u...
its my fault for picking up...
now its time for me to put it down...
how can you make me stop crying.. when ure the one who make me cry...
love... is the only four letter word which hurtx more then pain...
[D.X]
