Monday, November 09, 2009?
after 35 long days of struggle its finally over.
ive ruined my chances even till the very end.
guess i wasnt being delicate about the situation and too selfish.
Kenneth Ng .. its finally time to move, u did everything u could and shouldnt.
let this be a lesson, let ur regrets make u a stronger and better person.
I may have become what i was 6 months back, a lonely person who always hoped for love.
but this 6 months has not been wasted.
Lets hope life from now on isnt too shabby.
i need to enhance myself.
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i cant help it, got tempted to read what has happened the last one month.
and how she react to me.
im really a moron. hahaha ..
in the end everything has come up to my own insecurity and distrust.
o well ..
too late to do anything now.
she hates me.
just have to rant at her yesterday, could have ended it asap as a good night.
she said smth which kind of scared me, smth bout most girls nowadays have motives.
at least im sure theres no more hope.
FAR KING THIGH YEAR-ED
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guess ill definitely survive without msging her today
i cant msg her :(
and she hates me .. realise it is everyday around this time i miss her the most.
i have no idea why.
now everything i do now reminds me of her ...
sigh ....
almost cried when having dinner just now,
guess my dad knows about the break up.
actually how im acting now everyone will know theres smth wrong..
i still miss her :(
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its almost the end of today ! and i survive day one without messaging her.
well, it seems like my withdrawal symptoms are
5pm-8pm dinner time
10pm onwards
and the moment i just wake up.
that explains why i've been waking up abruptly and the moment i wake up i cant go back to sleep
well today was a super super bored day..
for readers maybe u can see i went crazy with my tagboard talking to myself
sorry bout that, having fun with my alter ego.
I love it when my memory decided to bring myself back to those moments i asked her for break ups. and when she cried because of me.
it totally makes me feel like shit :)
i need to leave her alone now though
maybe in the future. ill get back together with her again.
its not like i have the heart to get another girlfriend soon.
maybe shes my next girlfriend
hahahahhaha
well ...
maybe if i dun sleep that early u will see me post emo shit again :D
Ill try to start doing my work tomorrow.
need to get use to staying at home for like 4-5 days in a row again.
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