Friday, November 20, 2009?
arg .. so tired .. but i guess blogging here is healthy..
one day in the future.. maybe a few years later i can look back at my posts and just laugh or mused about it.
well .. she keeps coming back into my head from yesterday, but its a weird way .. like a weird feeling inside of me.. is it like a guilt or smth ? or i miss her but i know it is a thing of the past ?
just something quite indescribable but not a good feeling.
does guys who just dun give a shit, and care less in a relationship gets the upperhand ?
it just seem true, and they dun get hurt that much in the end too..
be it ignorant or oblivious it just seems like a better deal.
maybe love is just a game.. just need to be tactical about it, strategies ...
like cat string theory..
how we can use a ball of strings to sway it around and just see the cat trying to catch it..
the moment we give it to them, they will play with for awhile and lose interest.
sigh ... too bad im not those kind of guy who can pull this off...
but at the moment.. every guy who uses this technique is doing well in love life..
maybe sweet and romantic, be there whenever u need and worrying for the well being is outdated, overrated.
i just cant admit to the fact that the one who care less in the relationship wins.
at the beginning of my 5th relationship, i was happy that my ex love me more then i do.
until one day i begin to love her more, it is when the down slope started.
" the one who care less in the relationship wins .."
crude, heartless ...
but it might be true .. sad to say..
if thats the case, i somehow would rather stay single ..
why cant i love someone with all i got and get praised for it ?
well , lets hope the primary sch gathering today + danny's place bbq will cheer me up again
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idk why im still having the emo vibes..
i think my previous relationship really left a bad scar ..
i think i should just stop ranting for awhile..
sometimes i think that no one is reading ...
why am i still hoping someone would cheer me up..
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