Monday, November 16, 2009?
god .. i took a 6 hours break unintentionally.
i guess really no more sleep.
i got 12 hours left to complete my work to keep a steady pace.
too bad im fucking trashed right now...
why does her every word still affects me so much ...
and why the hell does she thinks that i am the one who is trying to lose contact with her ..
u know what..
if she dun give a fuck, maybe i should learn to not give a fuck too ..
i almost typed in her name on facebook search bar just now, but decided not to.
quite proud of myself.
its like saying no to cigarette.
ok work time ...
please talk to me if u want to :) im freaking bored.
ill be on msn till tuesday.
0304
almost 12 hours left for my work,
i need to triple my work rate.
Yes, its possible.
cos ive been slacking even at the last minute.
im actually feeling abit ... weird now ...
to sum it all up,
im glad it happened,
passion always triumph.
maybe its not love that is blind..
its the passion it contains..
just because of 'that', i have to be sacrificed ..
being in oblivious was a shitty feeling.
at least now i know what to avoid doing next time.
every relationship is a learning process.
theres nothing more to learn from this already.
I will never cry everyday because of this again.
imagine at 2am, alone at a park bench, crying ur eyes out. talking to no one,
kneeling on the floor and beg to the air. for an hour.
and crying almost every night to sleep.
im dehydrated.
This event has enlightened me to see things differently from now on.
its ok if everything i've done since that incident can be negated by a single passion,
and my presence is a mere obstacle and annoyance.
it is just so simple, it always has been. I worked my mind too much to layout every possibility only to find out that it is just a straight path.
but who am i to blame u,
I'm a person who work on passion too, thats why i fell in love with u.
If u wanna remove me from ur life because of passion, i gladly oblige.
but please, ur not making a clean cut. U dun know me well enough.
but thx for putting my feelings into consideration.
but by hiding from me, u hurt me more.
so ya, thx but no thx.
Well. today's post is a marking point of genesis.
if one day i managed to get her to change the wireless modem name, ill be truly free.
lets wait till the day my love for her truly dissipate
Its time for me to think about my own happiness now.
still, in order to gain ur happiness, u made me suffer 3 weeks of sorrow that i have never felt before.
in the end, we end up giving each other our happiest and most heart breaking relationship.
Guess.. we are even now ..
but lucky u, u have someone now.
godamit its always easier for a girl to find a new love.
yes this post is meant for my exgf.
for those we completed this post, thanks.
and like my single self ... got girl intro ?
then ill end up being picky..
P.S : thanks jon for making everything possible, ur anal, but have ur good points.
Please get over my sister or do something bout urself.
0520
OMG !!!! IM AT 50 SECONDS IN MY ANIMATION ALREADY,
IM NOT EVEN HALFWAY DONE YET.
MAX TIME LIMIT IS 1MIN !!
OMGWTFSIAOLIAOIMSODEAD !
0606
ok im going to nap awhile.. if ANYONE IS READING THIS ..
please wake me up at erm .. 11am later ?
im quite tired already ..
0723
i over slept :(
3hours 45 mins left.
all wish to say is i need to rush and ...
i feel damn upset about certain things ...
1316
o no.. im off schedule ..
ill try to finish before 1900.
1702
YES I FINISHED MY FLASH :D
after dinner im going to work on my cd cover and progression ...
lets do this ..
"U actually did this to me, Ill not let u consume my mind"
2014
