Wednesday, November 18, 2009?
i feel abit here and there
sad and happy
hmmm
i guess its the holidays already..
time to spend some time rotting at home..
hope more thing comes up ..
have a feeling this is going to be a very lonely and boring holiday.
but lets just hope for the better.
once in awhile ill make some effort to go out..
and i missed today's presentation.
im so dead..
if i really fail my nafa first term ...
maybe i deserve it...
lets hope not ...
the thought of yet another lonely christmas, new year, valentine, is sooo sian ....
anyway.. my friend just called me, say i might still be able to come for presentation.
ok im going prepare fast now ..
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ok i end up not going .. wtf ..
hmmm ...
should i spend my money on tekken 6 or wow top up ?
wow seems abit better cos at least i get to interact with other players,
besides, rizal is playing too :D
the thought of releveling another character is such a pain..
tekken 6 is quite good too but more expensive, heard it has new feature and has a rating like almost the perfect game ... hmmmmmm
might have enough for both haha ..
see how ba ...
well gonna leave house for awhile..
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ive been deleted from facebook ..
for some reason ..
i feel very guilty for what i've done ..
o well ..
today will be the last time i check out her profile through another person's account.
and she got new pictures which I couldnt see.
haha.
maybe im just not cut out to do fucked up things like this.
cos at the end of the day, ill criticise myself for doing such a thing.
now .. a part of me want to hate .. another part of me want to apologise.
something is wrong with me ...
maybe i too shall just stop doing anything already ...
idk ..
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oh no ... im feel damn guilty !!!!
o well ...
but apparently its no longer those kind of sigh i shouldnt have said those things now i have screwed my chances with her.
its those o no, i should have kept that thought to myself now i made an enemy.
no matter how i dislike someone or whatever the person did, i can never bare grudges for too long.
i can never stay angry at anyone or anything..
SORRY !! forgive or not just have a good life from now on, hope our paths wont ever cross,
since u are utterly disgusted by me and i have broken the last trust u had..
even though i doubt there was any left.
ok .. got that out of my system ..
something that is worth a thought.
1) if i cant stay angry, and i cure my temper, i might become like a monk. buddha or smth. since i can get angry or stay angry..
2) a girl once said to me: " its no good if u learn how to make me happy, every girl wants different thing. but for guys, all of u all want the same thing."
its worth a thought actually.
cos i really dun think she is talking about sex, well all guy wants sex no doubt. but appease us by giving sex ? i dun think thats the point. so sex is out. or at least thats not me.
i think i'll start with 2 categories first.
those kind of guys who loves attention from the girlfriend, and those that do not.
maybe thats the main factor. if girls grasp that it would be easy.
idk ..
girls on the other hand..
im not sure how to sort them into categories.
maybe those that are on the cute side and those that are on the mature side.
but obviously there is a lot more.. hmmm
ill find one day to think about it..
maybe after that it would be easier to win a girls heart.
o well..
I shall relax myself until i get my result and hope i pass.
but finally no stress no worries.
but no companionship and no happiness.
hmmm so i'm back to square one now ...
lets hope i get my romantic life back..
romance in life is full of colours.
but for now im forced to get use to this black and grey life.
anyway yesterday, i hang out with my class mate at bugis food junction for like 8 hours.. haha
and went home sleep straight.
maybe thats why i over slept + previous night i didnt sleep.
update again later :D
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