Sunday, November 29, 2009?
it has come to a point that every reason i came up for me to hate has been forgotten.
thats just me. i cant bear grudges for too long ...
and it is because of this that caused my current state of mind.
idk.. i feel quite lost now ...
all the old memories are emerging from within my thoughts and once again i'm feeling like crap.
there are many things that are so sensitive that i dun even wanna put it in my blog.
there are times i really wish i would private my blog so i can pour my heart and soul out.
but because of self denial, i wont do so. it is already a big hint.
still, i know my stand.
i have been struggling with a decision, but it seems like i have not come up with a conclusion yet.
not that the conclusion matters now.
a few days back, jon made a closure with my sis. it seems like they are finally over..
but no matter what, their ending is still better then mine. pft ..
envious.
there is stuff about me that i haven been sharing with anyone, and that is probably the main problem now. still, i dun wish to say anything.. maybe its due to pride, or a sign of weakness.
tsk ... my thoughts are already flooding and yet i'm saying nothing..
maybe one day it will happen.
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