Saturday, November 07, 2009?
my final stage of transformation
to have trust. to be able to let loose.
to love and expect nothing in return.
i dun wanna assume anymore.
cure my paranoid and insecurity.
this is my last stand.
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hais .. wtf im awake ...
damn ...
its been one week since i last met her ...
shes been hanging out till late and sleeping in the morning.
i miss her.
its been since wednesday ..
why am i still being avoided? :(
one question.
has she already move on ?
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she's prolly gonna wake up late and do the whole thing again.
when will i ever get to meet her.
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Dear God ...
Please forgive me for I have sinned,
I have been backsliding and went wayward.
My thoughts have been tainted and full of impurities
I so humbly wish that there will be a turn of events in my situation.
or at least end my torment. For I have live my life recently in pain, denial and deception.
Please grant me the wisdom and courage to be strong, to love like how you love us,
to have faith and to trust.
For with that, my eyes will be open and my heart would be free.
and in jesus's name i pray, amen.
what i selfish prayer :|
anyway, living in the shadows is a tough feat.
lets hope i can have some fun tonight,
LETS GO DRINK !!
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