Thursday, November 19, 2009?
ok danny just went home ...
he actually turns out to be a really great company ...
its been awhile since i lol'd till i tear and stomach aching...
hahah ... at the most retarded jokes evar !
maybe this is those kind of life im lacking thats why i always want to be attached..
hahaha...
but now no sch no work and TEKKEN 6 AND WOW + friends is completing my life.
tekken 6 is a GOOD investment ... hahaha ...
im like so in love with this character called christie..
like *drools ... hahaha ...
im still kinda on my high mood now .. hahah ...
find one day wanna find some clubbing kaki ...
this is the first time i just want to go clubbing to enjoy loud pounding music instead of trying to know girls...
i dunno why ~~
well if i get to know girls it will be a bonus XD
im still feeling abit guilty hehe..
maybe i should avoid the relationship topic or girls in general for awhile..
quite impossible :P
hope food will stop reminding me of someone so i can eat normally from now on..
:D
ok 6AM CHOW
gonna wow or smth till im drop dead tired
0600
sigh ...
today one of my fears came true..
while i was playing wow all of the memories of my previous relationship came rushing into me.
like her face, her smile, her sorrows ...
those faces i thought i already gotten rid of from my mind ...
after all, it has been 11 days since i last saw her...
and it is because of wow, it caused our inevitable break up.
The last expression I ever saw on her face is a sweet smile, on her best friend's profile.
and lets just keep it this way. and forever in my mind she will stay like that.
still feeling abit guilty ...
maybe love is really like a drug..
it made me so happy, so high.. everyday theres an adrenaline rush inside me.
its like i would do anything to get "love", go to any extend.
but when everything is over, i still feel so empty inside.
nearly 4 years back, i manage to pull myself out of the circle of love.
maybe its time to do so again.
but still .. no doubt love is still the most enjoyable feeling ive ever felt.
but for now...
i plan to replace everything that would ever remind me of her with someone else, be it friend or another victim of mine. or even better, replace it with my own footsteps.
maybe if i numb my brain long enough, ill forget about most of the things eventually..
I can forgive, and amazingly, I can forget.
forgetting is a blessing.
ok enough of that ...
got a feeling later is going to be a fun night..
1709
