Wednesday, November 11, 2009?
sigh ...
maybe its really too late...
but i wont assume ..
arr... dun assume kenneth ng ! dun assume.
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i feel alot better after praying :|
living on a prayer.
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theres actually an easier way out but i dun wanna take it :(
ill let my heart shatter 2 more times before ill let go.
before that ill still just keep my distance and wait.
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i wish i could talk to u too ..
like about anything :(
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how i wish i can just tell u im tired le, good night. sleep early.
hais.
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just finished dinner.
served this vege, white stems with green leafs
bai cai or smth.
cherlie's favourite vege.
i ended up finishing my rice with nothing else except the vege ..
:(
anyway i just realise she has a blog..
too bad friends lock is enabled.
sigh ...
WHY ISNT THERE ANYTHING I CAN DO BUT TO WHINE HERE !
WHY CANT THERE BE A MIRACLE! WHY CANT WE TRY IT ONE MORE TIME !
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sigh ... what happened to 11th november, the day ill ask her back.
what happened to 31/31
today is exactly 1mnth 1 week since we broke up
from a girl that felt hurt and loves me alot
she became easily irritated by me and hates me. avoiding me, for some reason hiding stuff from me.
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what ever is happening i deserve it.
i asked for it.
i caused it.
ill have to accept it.
i already lost u.
no use being in denial anymore.
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i cycled to tampines just now.. and went past all the places with memories.
it really just shouted for a brief moment.
its too much regret and agony for me to inhale in.
all the tears ive been holding back for so long have rolled down my cheek.
there's no point in avoiding the inevitable anymore, ive did all i could.
i'll just pass her stuff to her sister this friday.. she dun need my presence anymore.
it will make her feel worse.
now. ill have to hurt myself one last time.
hope i have the courage to do it.
to delete all her pictures, to remove all trace of her face, to let my mind and heart suffer from what we use to have and how i threw it all away again.
i love u and i wasnt able to maintain ur love for me.
as long as she is happy ...
my tears, hurt and regret means nothing anymore.
i can feel a spoon carving my heart now.
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