Wednesday, November 04, 2009?
this feeling is very lousy.
all the trust and promise im hanging onto now.
its the only thing left.
all the dreams i had..
it made me happy.
yet when i wake up it depress me even more.
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sigh ...
untagged.
always thought it wont happen so soon
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jaz said to me
"are u 100% sure u love her."
"do u think she is the one."
"if you do, go for her no matter what happens"
should i sell my soul for love again ?
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fighting back to hold my tears but fail.
she told me there isnt love anymore ..
my worse nightmare came true.
all these time ive been hoping
all these time ive been praying
but eventually it still happened.
today is exactly a month since we have broken up.
i have tried everything i could to bring her back.
but like all my love stories
I failed to.
its hard to let out fake chuckles and add joking comments in our conversation
hope she doesnt actually come back to my blog.
i can totally feel what does heart wrenching mean.
like i can visualize my heart wrenching.
theres no one better to talk to then her.
theres a million things i want to write down.
but seems like my hands are shivering already.
idk why too ..
maybe sadness causes hands to shiver ?
idk ...
im going to take the time off today and drink alchohol.
and cry over the matter.
lets hope i can release everything with every single droplet of tears.
life isnt the same anymore.
but life goes on.
sad to say we wont be walking hand in hand.
bgfe.
hope theres another bbfe out there for u.
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walking back from buying mixer,
newspaper auntie ask
"Eh? alone ah? girlfriend leh?"
fuck my life.
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getting drunk.
my last stand.
i dun wanna lose u.
but i dun wanna make u unhappy.
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