Thursday, November 12, 2009?
will i ever find another girl out there who can make me as happy as she did
a girl who lets me speak my mind without worrying she will judge me
a girl who wont judge me by my looks
a girl who enjoys the same things i do
a girl who i can truly feel comfortable with
a girl who made me change the opinion bout getting married
ive went single for 3 years just to let this happen to me again
there are times when i was with cherlie when i thought i wasnt good enough for her,
like im not goodlooking enuf, not build enuf or not tall enough
guess all these are true
i always thought my character and personality will compensate for all these.
but apparently i dun have such a wonderful personality after all.
im a burden, she deserves better.
i shall move on ...
listening to symphony actually soothes the mind ...
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i wasnt able to take it anymore...
i broke down..
i just sat down at the bench near my place and just sob ..
sigh ...
red, swollen eyes and stuffed nose sucks.
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it seems like as my relationship is getting worse and worse
my dreams just decides to get sweeter and sweeter, more vivid.
at one point i even felt that it was true.
maybe after all these is over i should sleep forever and stay in sweetness
perpetually.
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just finish watching fast and furious on hbo
im gonna prepare and cycle to eastpoint and tampines to get some stuff for the final delivery tmr
these few days i have always hoped that she would suddenly decided to contact or meet me.
but guess those thoughts are just stupid.
after tomorrow i'll have to stop all the futile efforts.
I've tried everything in my abilities already, and if she still cant find the heart
to even accept me as a friend rather then a dating couple. Then theres nothing i can do
anymore.
I'm not the type that gives up for the one I love.
But guess theres nothing else left to do.
maybe if she is the one .. our path will cross again in the future.
if only i can have another shot at this.
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im home ...
please give me a miracle tonight ..
i just want a miracle.
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give me a miracle...
give me a miracle ....
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today is coming to an end ...
cmon !!! wheres my miracle !!
please give me one ...
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i wanted a miracle...
not another argument..
she was upset that i contacted her friend ...
maybe the only key now is to ignite my anger again ...
when im angry now it just feels easier to let go.
ive did all i could.
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