Saturday, November 14, 2009?
yesterday ended up to be a ok day...
nothing bad really happened..
after my delivery i decided to go to the 8th floor, a sky garden we hang out a few times at.
took a few deep breath and prepare myself for the road to come.
no more companionship which i lack the most.
no more tender loving care.
no more care and concern from the one i love.
thinking to myself, im not sure when will be the next time i will step foot in kallang again.
At that moment i felt a sudden sense of tranquility, one that i have never felt in a few months.
not since the first few times we dated.
at that moment i keep wondering whether that is a sense of tranquility of just loneliness,
but whatever it is. It is a feeling that will be hard to forget, its those kind of feeling whereby
u just finished watching the last episode of ur favorite tv programme.
just thinking, all the enjoyment and fun is over, whats next?
sigh ... its not exactly a very wonderful feeling.
but sometimes u just wish u want to watch the show all over again.
or will there be a sequel. well thats something i'll find out in the future.
BUT NOW.
i have to stop looking at her profile.
watching her and felix get closer and closer is not exactly a healthy thing,
It wont be long till he starts posting on her wall and commenting on her status regularly.
Well at least its lucky for her to find a decent guy so soon.
Hope I find another decent girl soon.
I'll need to rush my ISP from now on.
3 days till the due date.
maybe after that
ill continue being all "i have gotten over her vibes"
(which is currently untrue but in progress)
or maybe then i might be more or less over her.
in a sense i dun have the urge to see whats new anymore.
sad to say.
the memories are forever.
I'll never be able to hate her.
well .. gonna start doing work after a cig :)
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ok fuck .. its like near 7 am and i haven been progressing in my work, im too tired to do anything now.
i must sleep !!!!
i still miss her somehow :(
hope the day that i dun talk about her in my blog come soon.
its getting pathetic ...
i judge myself .. haha ..
but well .. i dun blame myself ..
im not the easy to get over someone person.
gonna do work when i wake up .. or go out XD
ok chow nights world !
or morning ..
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