Tuesday, December 08, 2009?
just home for awhile ...
nuaing on my bed fantasizing about sleeping ..
i probably shouldnt have done this but i went for a mahjong game at robin's house..
lost 19 bucks lol ..
cycled there and back ..
i need to go prepare in like 10 mins to go sch for deferment letter
those office admin bitch say they need 2-3 working days to produce a fucking deferment letter .
by hook or by crook i really need to make them spit out the deferment letter later asap so i can make it for my appointment at cmpb with some inspector at 10.
o well ..
im tired as hell ..
my mind still have images of the past surfacing every now and then :(
when will it leave me alone ..
0745
i just reached home not long ago ... im so trashed right now .. but blogging is healthy for the soul lol ..
anyway today turned out more smoothly then i expected, the letter was ready for collection immediately and the cmpb inspector turns out to be a very nice guy lol ...
i actually intended to watch movie with faz and yuki but for some reason i ended up going to bugis to meet danny for awhile ..
nothing much really happened .. just rot abit at the arcade ..
and spend 30 bucks on cab far in the morning haha ..
today i was able to get like 6 hours of alone time outside, and made me think about those stuff again .. was feeling tired + emo most of the time today .. sadded .. i kinda think i wont be able to get over her for some reason .. i sorta spent 30mins day dreaming that one day i wake up before the 30th september, no details needed but it wasnt a good day. and prolly another 20mins thinking about the long bullshitty msg im gonna send her, purely on apology ofcourse ..
and planning when will it be most appropriate ..
its gonna be the last msg i send her for a very long time .. so ya i gave serious thoughts about the contents.
there is no such thing as "the one"
"the one" is cultivated.
just that some people are far from the ideal "type" doesnt mean he/she isnt the one.
so as long as one get the mentallity of he/she is not the one, the relationship will come to a halt.
cause there will no longer be comprimising, and nothing will work out.
people who appears to be "the one" are just someone who are very ideal to what u want ur partner to be like.
and thus i conclude that please work things out, never give up.
"the one" is made. not destined if not why are we always adjusting ourself for our partners needs. Well unless u are selfish u wont.
that is sorta the end of today's long winded post.
alone time makes me think a lot.
and im not sure whether this issue is subjective or not, call me stubborn or what. Im standing by my laws. As long as one did not betray my love, ill always give my everything to work things out.
ill keep the next logic talk for the next post.
still have smth in mind ..
if u actually made it this far reading this thanks for baring with my pictureless posts and u can skip all these long post if u feel like it is a waste of time.
these are my idealogy.
ill stand by what i believe.
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