Wednesday, January 06, 2010?
father problem is a pain in the ass ..
when i wake up hell is gonna break loose for sure ..
sigh ..
lets just see what happens ..
i should stay passive for now ..
*skip my emo stuff please if u want ..
i've now finally lost trace of her ..
i really hate getting over someone ..
its like u are ripping out a part of u
u are forcing urself to forget how important she was ..
making urself believe that she isnt the best for u ..
wanting to stop loving ..
right now .. the memories of her is getting less and less vivid ..
what i held on for what i cried for seem so meaningless ..
and it was such a short time span of 3 months ..
i hate it ..
i hate to know that when one day her name, her face and everything about her will no longer be special, will no longer flare up the passion that i had.
like all my other ex girlfriends ..
my heart has made itself immune to any passion for them ..
it brings tears to my eyes on the last wedding i attended. ofcourse not for joy.
but .. good stuff just doesnt seem to happen to some of us ..
the person whom i thought is the one left me ..
o well ..
life ... sadly .. goes on ..
ill just prepare for more drama later ..
the day my relationship status on FB becomes single .. is the day i really get over her ..
that will be a sorrowful day ..
when a passion really dies off ..
0725
