Monday, March 08, 2010?
this is it ...
im officially not good enough for anyone ..
im too self centered and I cant even think in the shoes of my girlfriend ..
sigh...
i always thought that im a awesome boyfriend material guy that is just misunderstood and have no lucks with girls ..
now i know ... i was just in denial ..
i suck as a boyfriend ..
i dunno ... i feel so helpless now ..
there is no way to improve myself in a short amount of time
I kinda regret letting her see my blog too ...
sigh ..
i really want this relationship to work out..
if this relationship fails im just gonna stay single permanently ...
but ill put every ounce of effort i have into this one
but if it still fails then its decided then ..
i really want to hide my weakness and what im thinking from everyone ...
this blog's existence is not to show people of my past or my life.
its just a thing i keep for myself for future references of what i was like in the past..
sigh ..
i want to be the best boyfriend ever ...
but it seems like it's so far away ...
i'm actually having doubts bout myself now...
not a good sign ..
sigh
o well ..
i smell another series of daily emo post if situation does not improve.
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