Wednesday, December 09, 2009?
omg im so dead ...
as much as I'd like to rant about other boring stuff I believe this shit is much more serious.
while i was at bugis today I saw grayson and we talked abit and he told me that the school result was out.
when i got home i checked my studentnet only to find out that I failed 5 fucking modules
FIVE GODDAMIT !!
its no fucking joke ..
this is really bullshit ...
i've sent an email to the school regarding what is going to happen..
im so dead im so dead im so dead .. !!! .. !!!
I really should have done my work properly rather then saving a relationship that failed eventually.
sigh .. all the hard work .. has gone down the drain ...
all of them ..
sigh ... i feel like a super failure now ..
everything around me is starting to fall apart again ..
i wanted shit to spice up my life abit .. and i definitely got it ..
fml ...
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Tuesday, December 08, 2009?
just home for awhile ...
nuaing on my bed fantasizing about sleeping ..
i probably shouldnt have done this but i went for a mahjong game at robin's house..
lost 19 bucks lol ..
cycled there and back ..
i need to go prepare in like 10 mins to go sch for deferment letter
those office admin bitch say they need 2-3 working days to produce a fucking deferment letter .
by hook or by crook i really need to make them spit out the deferment letter later asap so i can make it for my appointment at cmpb with some inspector at 10.
o well ..
im tired as hell ..
my mind still have images of the past surfacing every now and then :(
when will it leave me alone ..
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i just reached home not long ago ... im so trashed right now .. but blogging is healthy for the soul lol ..
anyway today turned out more smoothly then i expected, the letter was ready for collection immediately and the cmpb inspector turns out to be a very nice guy lol ...
i actually intended to watch movie with faz and yuki but for some reason i ended up going to bugis to meet danny for awhile ..
nothing much really happened .. just rot abit at the arcade ..
and spend 30 bucks on cab far in the morning haha ..
today i was able to get like 6 hours of alone time outside, and made me think about those stuff again .. was feeling tired + emo most of the time today .. sadded .. i kinda think i wont be able to get over her for some reason .. i sorta spent 30mins day dreaming that one day i wake up before the 30th september, no details needed but it wasnt a good day. and prolly another 20mins thinking about the long bullshitty msg im gonna send her, purely on apology ofcourse ..
and planning when will it be most appropriate ..
its gonna be the last msg i send her for a very long time .. so ya i gave serious thoughts about the contents.
there is no such thing as "the one"
"the one" is cultivated.
just that some people are far from the ideal "type" doesnt mean he/she isnt the one.
so as long as one get the mentallity of he/she is not the one, the relationship will come to a halt.
cause there will no longer be comprimising, and nothing will work out.
people who appears to be "the one" are just someone who are very ideal to what u want ur partner to be like.
and thus i conclude that please work things out, never give up.
"the one" is made. not destined if not why are we always adjusting ourself for our partners needs. Well unless u are selfish u wont.
that is sorta the end of today's long winded post.
alone time makes me think a lot.
and im not sure whether this issue is subjective or not, call me stubborn or what. Im standing by my laws. As long as one did not betray my love, ill always give my everything to work things out.
ill keep the next logic talk for the next post.
still have smth in mind ..
if u actually made it this far reading this thanks for baring with my pictureless posts and u can skip all these long post if u feel like it is a waste of time.
these are my idealogy.
ill stand by what i believe.
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Monday, December 07, 2009?
ok this is bad ...
this morning i was woken up by my sis
she said there was a phone call that was looking for me urgently from cmpb..
moment i heard cmpb + urgent = wah shit ...
some inspector called me and said that im supposed to be enlisted to NS on the 12th of december
which is like what, 5 days away wtf ?
so supposingly i need to go to the army 5 days away from now.
the thing is i did not receive my medical checkup letter in october and i didnt receive my letter of enlistment ...
so later today ill need to go nafa and try to make them spit out a letter of deferment by tmr morning or later today..
and meet this inspector at cmpb at 10am tmr .. wtf ..
im not even sure if it would be a successful deferment ..
if not ill have to withdraw from nafa and go ns ...
o well ..
not that i hate going to ns now or smth but it is better if i complete my diploma first ..
arg
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Sunday, December 06, 2009?
7am hehe ...
back home not long ago from mah jong ..
won 15 bucks :D
last round made me turn the tide ..
5 folds self made ....
$19.20
meaning i was losing before the last round ...
well ...
shiock :D
anyway i watched zombie land with fazli ..
fucking awesome show ...
so much humor and so much gore ..
and a pretty girl with a lil tint of love story inside ...
my type of awesome show ...
well go catch it if u can !!!
soccer later on !!!!
chow ...
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Saturday, December 05, 2009?
been awhile since i slept so long :D
i slept like from 2100- 1330
got a whole series of weird nonsensical shitty blank nude dreams ..
for some reason this women with saggy boobs appeared in my dream..
HAHAHAHAHHAHA
but anyways ... ill be meeting fazli for some movie later ...
and he is going to pass me L4D2 !!!!!
YAY !!!!
its good to have friends who LOVE getting pirated stuff...
and it can be played on garena too :D
ok chow .. update l8er
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